20. I am watching myself from an outer perspective;

I feel like I am watching myself from an outer perspective;

I also feel like I am so far deep inside my body that I am not. 

I feel too big for my body, or too big for life, but I also feel that I am small and shrink myself.

I never say what I mean to say, nothing comes out right

and more often than not I don’t even believe or

like the thing that I am talking about and

I want it to end.